Hopeless
I was rapped and beaten almost ten years ago by my boss which led to a hospitalization and emergency surgery that left me completely broken. I married now and dealt with infertility due to that incident and worked so hard to have my little miracle. Why can I not heal? Why is therapy not working? Why did I have a panic attack in front of my child while on a walk and a man jogging behind me just left me crippled on the sidewalk. What’s wrong with me? Why am I so messed up? I’m so lucky. My husband lets me stay home because since this happened, I have not been able to hold down a job. I’m so lucky to even be able to have my beautiful daughter after all of this, but I feel so stuck. I feel broken and damaged.
@akay06 you are a very strong person, do not bring yourself down just because you feel worthless. The fact you have managed to survive and still live and even have a daughter just proves how amazing you are and you should feel proud of yourself. Not everyone deals with a situation the same, and if therapy does not work for you maybe you can find other ways to feel better. Even if you cannot move when there is a man near you, you can still talk to your husband and interact with him. That just goes to show how you are still fighting to heal to this day.