Hopeless
Currently i feel abandoned, anxious and lonely.
Not long ago i had my best friend by my side and my loving boyfriend. Now they have both left me and i am non-existent to them. It feels like someone has strapped weights to my ankles, put me in a cage, and has thrown me into deep water. I see no way out of this darkness. Every day is a struggle. It takes so much effort for general self-care that i am slowly falling apart and i dont know how to stop this. It hurts me the most that they are happy and have replaced me with other people like i'm just some object.
I went from the busiest social life to the person who is in their bed day and night crying.
I want to fix my relationships with both of them, and i know this might take time, but i want to have hope. I need to have hope. I have nothing else to hold onto.