Having anxiety right now

So much is triggering my anxiety. I had to renew my lease for public housing and they are reviewing my financials, my son''s disability is being reviewed and I had to fill out a functionality report for him with no training or help and I'm terrified I did it wrong and will cost him his disability that pays the rent, I have a big big medical appointment with a blood specialist friday that is testing me for leukemia, and my therapist has been out on maternity leave so I've been basically without support for a while. She comes back thursday thank goodness, but I've tried to do everything she taught me. Count. breathe. mindfulness . grounding. idk its so bad right now its like nothing helps. Anxiety is truly miserable. I'm just overwhelmed.

I'm at the mercy of government programs and beurocrats in offices decide the outcome of my life based on their paperwork and requirements. People like me slip through the cracks every day and become homeless over red tape or a missing document or a problem with paperwork. So I feel powerless and at their mercy and truly intimidated by the office staff who grumpily decide how much my rent should be, if I can even keep living here, or if I will keep getting medicaid for my medication, or if my son will still recieve disability. My life is literally in the hands of these government workers that mail paperwork to my house that says its due yesterday.

I have a social worker but the paperwork always arrives late, with just a couple days to return it and no time to make an appointment with the social worker to help! So I do the best I can and mess everything up doing it wrong. I''m just venting. I feel like I need a business and a law degree to navigate these programs. In fact if they cut my son off his disability, I am going to have to hire a lawyer to help.