Flash Backs and Anxiety

I am really not doing ok right now. My anxiety stems from a workplace rape and absue situtation that put me in the hospital with physical issues for an entire week. There were a lot of red flags that something like this would happen from workplace bullying, gender discrimination, men co-workers discussing how they would tie up a woman to rape her. I reported all of it and my supervisor just kept saying that I would ruin their career and that it's how men joke. He kept calling it locker room talk. That locker room talk turned into a beating session and then rape for me a year later by the same co-workers that were bullying and harrashing me. They even followed me home one night and kept calling me at odd hours during the night. I didn't want to live for a long time after that, but I went to therapy and got better.

It took forever to get over. This happened 10 years ago. I left that job and never looked back. I now run from jobs when I see any sort of bullying or harrashment because I am so scared that it will all happen again. I wish I could not work, but then how would I survive?

I mainly take remote only jobs now to avoid that situation all together. Well I started working for a small business remotely doing what I love in July. There are so few of us and I for the first time ever didn't encounter any bullying until a new environmental legal advisor came into the picture. I cannot sleep or eat and I am pregnant because his absue is so similar to what happened before. I am keeping a record and reporting it to my supervisor, but he won't fire him. He calls and absues me at 3:00am and sends texts telling me how useless I am on Sundays evenings.

I have to work right now, but I feel so hopeless and scared because of how this man is talking to me. It is disgusting and he has threatened me now for reporting it. I know I work remotely, but I am shaking even now with just how similar the situtations are. My flash backs right now are horrible and I have no idea what to do. My husband wants me to quit, but with this baby coming there is no way we could afford it. I am so terrified.