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Hi guys,

Love to see people helping each other here. I'm 23, turning 24 next month. So I am not much of a people person. But I do like to spend time, party with friends, be around some people, which I wasn't able to do much of in my college life. I have quite strict parents and plus due to certain conditions at my home, me and my elder brother have to take care of our mom, so I had to miss out a lot. But with time I accepted the inevitable, and didn't paid much attention to it.

Now, I have recently graduated, and I missed my only graduation ceremony, plus the party after that, due to the fact that any of us cannot afford any infection or so. Now I see them enjoying, living their lives so damn easily, I feel terrible, cause probably thats never gonna happen again.

Now, I am reflecting upon my life as a sad, studious and workaholic person who will end up as a pathetic loner in future if I kept on missing out things.

I might be overthinking, but I cannot get this out of my head. I am aware of the responsibilities, and I feel selfish and guilty to even want some fun with friends. But I get sad, depressed, feel helpless, even cry. I feel like my life has come to a halt, which will never ever change. I am destined to live like this.

I just want to feel great again. Just bury these feelings, accept that I have to miss out, and just get on with whatever I have. How do I do this?

P.S Pardon if this is the wrong thread. I'm new here :)