Depression Check In
I just joined 7 Cups. I've had a terrible day. Spent most of it crying. My listener was very nice. I'm not used to taking care of me. I usually cry in private and show everyone else my fake smile.I'm really glad I discovered this community.
I was told to look at how strong I am. That my boyfriend isn't really my strength, he just sees the strength in me. I'm trying to look at myself through his eyes. I almost made it through a whole day without crying. I can try to be positive, that when he gets out of rehab on Thursday, he will reach out to me. That he will still want me in his life. That I'm a good influence in this his and he won't want to lose what we have. I constantly think the worst and then let my mind take over. That cripples me. My thoughts become my reality and consumes me. I fall apart and uncontrollably cry. Please let me get through these last 5 days. Please
@toughScarf6146 Hey, I just joined myself. I know how you feel.. You cry alone when nobody can here you, then you put on a mask when you walk out of your room. A mask that everybody knows to be you, but in reality nobody knows the real you..You got this !
