Debilitating anxiety
Sometimes anxiety is just debilitating, so much that it makes it impossible to do things. At the moment I'm unemployed but doing part time freelance research. I wanted to do something as simple as baking a cake. But when I'm anxious the slightest thing upsets me and I freak out starting to cry if even one ingredient is not to be found exactly where I expect it to be in the pantry. Meds help, but I don't want to be too dependent on meds - medication, especially benzodiazepines, are only a temporary solution in my view. It remains a struggle.
@LonerWolf1
I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling so much at the moment. Of course, I'll never be exactly in your position as that is yours alone, but I know from my own anxiety that when it gets to feeling like that it's just so, so awful. I'm glad that meds help at the very least, that's something which is always better than nothing. But it's obviously so, so important to work out different ways of doing things as well even if you do stay on meds (which there's absolutely nothing wrong with), which you clearly understand which is great. I so hope things get easier for you sooner rather than later. If there's anything I can do, please feel free to reach out <3
@GlitteringNights
Thank you so much. It sometimes just helps that someone listens and recognizes struggles with anxiety. Of course we can never exactly know what another person is going through because we are not that person, but just knowing someone can identify or empathize is enough... sometimes all I need. Thanks for being there. :)
I eventually baked that cake even though with the help of meds. I'm trying to get along with a bit less of the anxiety meds today.