Canceling appointments because of crippling anxiety
LonerWolf1
October 21st, 2020
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I had to cancel an appointment with my doctoral supervisor (now co-researcher) because my anxiety is just too crippling. I don't know if I would be able to drive in this state and chances are very good that I would drive half way of the 30 min drive to campus and then turn around because I can't handle the anxiety, confusion and racing thoughts. The problem is that this is probably a self-fulfilling prophecy, but I can't think clearly enough to convince myself otherwise. And now the guilt and shame of canceling another appointment for no reason except my irrational anxiety.
I know that is a lot of complaining but I actually want to know if anyone can identify with this. I feel like such an idiot.