Being Disowned and having to drop out of college

Hi everyone. I've been disowned by my family 3 days ago. They've done that to me before as a scare tactic and said they were teaching me a lesson. This time it was because they didn't like my boyfriend's job and since I chose to be with him and defend him (and they never met him bc we are long distance) they disowned me. I felt so much betrayal and pain bc of this. I now have such great anxiety about my future bc for once I am focusing on what makes me happy and not only my parents. I've tried for years to please them and put anything that I cared about under the rug just to avoid conflict. Maybe we don't have any boundaries at home. But to disown me over a guy they never even gave a chance to is not fair, in my opinion. While I love my family, I chose to drop out of college since they will no longer support me and my mental health has been taking a decline due to such family stress. I now have to move and somehow may back my loans and get a job. I have some money in my bank but I still feel like this is an unreal experience. I feel anxious to step outside fearing i'll run into my parents even tho I know they arent here. I feel anxious if I'll be safe in the real world and if I'll ever come to regret my decision even tho in my gut, I know what I'm doing is something that is healthy for me. I feel anxious that my parents will never come around and accept me and see me as a failure. Are there any tips I can have for anyone who has been in the situation or just in general? Thank you! <3