Anxious and Alone

Oh hell, if I don't understand you perfectly. Never had a good touch with my family, frankly they've been a giant part of my mental issues. They still are as a matter of fact. If you have to run - do it. Work for your own happiness because no one else will be able to do that for you. I'm in the same situation, always dealt with my problems by myself. But right now I'm just looking forward to me leaving it all behind in the future. I have plans to live with my (long distance as well) boyfriend at some point. Just telling myself that if I've survived my whole life dealing with it all until now then I can wait a little longer until I'm financially and mentally ready for such a step. Make sure you're making the choices YOU want for yourself - what happens later on is up to you.

I know it's tough, but you gotta do what makes you happy and feel free. Hope you achieve it one day 🤗

I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I kind of understand how you feel. My anxiety eats me up everyday and I feel so alone despite having a partner that has anxiety too. I try not to rant to them cause I don't want them carrying my troubles as well as theirs but then keeping it in makes me sicker. I sometimes wish it could make me sick physically so I can finally get professional help. I'm so tired of trying to soothe & heal myself while carrying on school. It's a lot and I just want to take a break from everything. I'm scared of falling into depression.

I hope you find a way out, get to spend more time with your boyfriend and receive the help & guidance you want. Happy Ramadan! [I'm not sure if that's what I'm meant to say. Sorry:( ]

I'm rooting for you!❤️