Anxious Thoughts Sufficating Me

I am currently a college student, and despite my major social anxiety, I was lucky enough to make a small group of friends. Over the past few months, I have struggled to be away from them because they make me feel validated. This upcoming weekend they told me that they were all meeting up because they all live in Pennsylvania and I was recently forced to move to North Carolina. Because of this move, I cannot meet up with them. I am deathly worried that they will like hanging out the three of them and realize that they do not need me. They are wonderful but I always feel in every friendship that I do not deserve them and they would be better off without me. I don't know if this is rational or not but I am terrified that they are going to talk have a bunch of fun and forget about me altogether.

The other piece that is stressing me out, is the fact that they talked in a sperate group chat about their plans in respect of me, which I appreciate, but I am now in my head about how often they talk in that group chat. I know they care about me but also know they wouldn't want to hurt me, so what if they have more fun without me in the group chat.

This all sounds really stupid looking back at it but it is creating a large amount of anxiety for me.