Anxiety + illness..

Long story cut massively short.

Was "normal" until I hit 18. Needed emergency surgery. It went wrong and left me with a complication only 1% of the world have and there's no cure. It just causes more issues.

In the 4 years it took to diagnose this I got MASSIVE anxiety. I've been to therapy ect and it's helped, I can now go outside, which I never used to. But now I feel stuck. Everyone expects me to be "normal" now I'm medicated. The anxiety has stuck. And the worst part is stress makes the physical illness worse.

I would like to skip forward to where I'm a "normal" person again but I can't. And the panics make it so hard to do anything.

Any advice or any other people with similair problems?

just be good to know it's not just me.