Anxiety and insecurity
I dont know .how to frame it..but most of the times ..I don't feel worth it .I hate being at home..it doesn't feel like home anymore.I really have abusive parents.They make me really sick .I am tired of this bullshit from the past two years .,actually more than two years.. I wish I got to get out of here and go to my college soon.These all things just fuck me up.I am so much dominated by anger feels.and I cant express it here.I wish things just be okay.I dont feel loved and free anymore. I feel I am prisoner. From time way back then., I used to be a kind humble human ..now I feel like I am a fiend ...things have just fucked me up...I have so much stone hearted..so much weak ..doesn't feel worth living..Whenever I get up ..though I dont really wont to get up...but still work needs to go on...I just cry when I get up..
I can relate to that on a personal level. Ofcourse each person's experience is unique. Sounds a lot like what I have experienced over the past few years. I am sorry you feel this way. It is very difficult to be in an unsupportive setting. I would encourage you though to seek social interaction with people. Isolation can do more harm than good. I genuinely wish you get the freedom you need. ❤ feel free to talk more about it. Reply or get in touch with a listener/ therapist.
Hi shivisha11,
I grew up in a very abusive home. My stepfather was physically and emotionally abusive, and my mother didn’t protect me. I set my sights on college and moved out as soon as I could. For me to move forward and heal, I had to come to a place of forgives for abuser and my mother. This didn’t happen overnight, but I did get there. I also got involved with a church group and found sanctuary among them. My whole life turned around once I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior. The Bible teaches that God is the Father to the fatherless, and since I didn’t have a father, He truly became my father. I felt like He was always watching and protecting me. I eventually graduated from college and started my own family. Just know, you have an amazing life ahead of you. Things will change, but you need to find a support system and make healthy connections with others. I found that at church—you may find it elsewhere. I’ll be praying for you @shivisha11 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
