About to ruin a vacation

Hello,

I feel, ofcourse, very anxious.

I came here my friends summer house yesterday night and heard a lot it is a nice place. However, anxiety kicks so hard that I vomitted yesterday, got diarrhea. And now thinking about going back 5 hours to home.

My doctor raised cipralex to 15 mg yesterday. Maybe taking it today will help a little bit.

Like everyone, I do not want this feeling to ever come back.

I drown in this feeling :(

Maybe I should live with it when it comes, stay silent to wait it pass.

God helps us all.

Love respect and support from distance if it is possible

Sam