1st panic attack
So I was snooping through my boyfriends phone the other night because I am so afraid that he will cheat online again. He doesn't tell me how he is feeling or if he is mad but when I confronted him about his last online relationship he tole me it was because the thought I didn'twant him anymore. It doesn't make sense because I was 3 months pregnant and we were carrying on in a normal relationship. Anyway, now I am so paranoid that anytime we argue or he doesn't like what I say or do, he will retaliate by cheating. So, I carry his phone into the bathroom...before I can even look through the phone I am shaking. It took me 5 minutes to figure what I was doing because I was shaking and so nervous. Once Ilogged to his email I could hardly see straight. I saw an email from a sender whose name was the same as the girl he was talking to and I went into full shock. I dropped the phone and realized I was shaking uncontrollably. I was asking myself what's happening to me right now. I told myself I think I'm having a panic attack. My chest was fluttering like I was hyperventilating but I wasn't hyper-ventilatingbecause I was talking myself through my breathing. *In* *out* *in* *out*. After a few minutes it concluded.Does this mean I have a mental illness?
It is good that you've come to this website to ask about this, because when I has my first panic attack, I thought that means I had to take loads of medications and be put in a hospital and things like that, which I was totally wrong about. Don't worry, it's not a mental illness. It just means you have a little higherlevel of anxiety than normal, which you callus probably talk to your doctor about and they could refer you to a some type of councilor :)
