Spiral

I woke up at 3AM with this panic attack and it feels like I'm spiraling down an endless pit. I've got so much that needs to be done, but I'm just too sick to do any of it. I'm emotionally and physically just dying here without a hope left in sight. I don't have any finances to help support myself or my 3 furkids. The Money my partner makes is barely enough to support her cigarette habit. I'm scared because we have had to pawn everything including my engagement ring & all of her music equipment.We have nothing and soon we wont have our car because we won't be able to pay the title loan on it. We haven't even got it registered like we should have, but then we wouldn't have had the money for her cigarettes. This month will be my 3rd month see a psychiatrist and I'm hoping that will help with my social security case.