I want to be happy
It's been about six months since I've last talked to my best friend and ex boyfriend. I haven't had a good night sleep since then. They won't talk to me. They ask my other friend how I am instead of talking to me. My friend told me that my best friend said I was too much to handle and thata why they left. My ex boyfriend was my first love and I want him back in my life but I'm too scared to ask why he left. I have dreams of them both telling me it's my fault they left me. I miss them both. I miss them being in my life but I'm scared to know the truth. I don't know what to do.
@Katscrytoo i firmly believe that you feel that you are worthless and replaceable but that this is just your rational conclusion caused by the pain of abandonment.
It is not your fault that they left you but your emotional pain that either attracted the wrong persons for you and/or that turned them away.
But, again, not because you made great mistakes or because you are wrong, but because the emotional pain cause these automatic reactions.
What to do? Be more accepting and loving for yourself. Get aware that it is your pain causing you that. Be willing to work on your pain emotionally as a life goal and i am sure that at some point of your life you will become proud of yourself and happy about yourself and your relationships.