"Where is everyone?"

I'm not sure if this is a vent, an ask for help, or both, but I know I need to get it out.

In the last few months I have been seeing my friends progressively less and less.

With my new job I haven't had the time or energy to talk to my online friends, my best friend is in school in another state, and one of my other close friends works a job with the opposite schedule as me.

Today I found out that one of my mutuals isn't actually my mutual and they infact did not like me, but just tolerate me because I was friends with their partner... their partner who doesn't like me because I tried to adress the fact that they flake on plans alot.

As much as I love my partner they are the only person I've seen outside of work in months and it's starting to make me feel like I don't exist to anyone else.

I found myself staring at the ceiling and crying tonight with one question loudly bouncing through the corners of my mind

"Where is everyone?"

So I'm guess I'm asking... what do I do? How do I feel better?