Thinking about going to therapy again but...
It's really hard to find a really good one here who would take me seriously, and my past experiences in therapy at 13 years old weren't exactly good? And my parents weren't doing well financially so they took me out of it. Mental health in this country isn't really taken that seriously, or at least I would've thought so years ago. So, I'm not sure how good it is now in 2023, but I doubt that they have gotten any better. I've been having problems with eating and chewing solid foods, and I dread at having to look at food on my plate. I don't eant my mom to see my cry again over a hamburger. My anxiety just doesn't let me consume any meals that I used to love, and the only thing I can eat are soups and milkshakes if I don't have the energy to eat something. I'm already scared of losing more weight, but I know that this is all temporary like everything else. Life isn't linear. There's going to be bumps on the road but it all goes smoother as you keep going. I'm trying not to be any more pessimistic as I already am.
I just really don't want to feel alone.