Taking Charge but with major anxiety
I lead a club and we put on a couple events every year. This is a pretty major thing for me. I was a shy kid and I've had anxiety all my life. I am currently on anxiety meds and I don't think I could do what I do without them.
In the week leading up to the event I'm a mess. I know I can do this. But I'm sure there are voices in my head saying I can't. My anxiety totally spikes and I feel like I'm going to crumble.
My anxiety gets way out of control. I still do everything thing I need to do but I totally stress. These events are competitions but they are really for fun and are not super serious. Though many people take them that way.
One person didn't get in because we reached out maximum entries and she said she's going to send her attorney after me. Which is entirely rediculous because she gets all her money back. On one hand I freak out about this happening. On the other hand I know it's silly and nothing will come of it.
Maybe I need to go back to counseling to work through this stuff. I really want to continue to do these things and I want to be able to handle them better emotionally.
Thanks for listening.
@PupBlue I read your story. I imagined myself in your shoes.
Hi @KDStar27,
Don't be so hard on yourself! I can understand that this is a stressful situation, but just the way you check-in on others sometimes you need to check-in with yourself too if you are pushing too hard and if you are doing alright. In the situation that you are you need to realize that you have done the best you could do, and also reaching out to a counselor sounds like a great decision. It might be great to have some support in your journey, and you can reach out to me or any other listeners here as long as you are comfortable with it. 😊
