Joined but not belonging.
For a long time now my psychologist has told me that i need friends. I tried going to meetups but i am always far older then the next oldest person in the group.
Last week i joined an online men's group. I have gone to meetings but i am so triggered i have a hard time even being present let alone participating. I am going to do more meeting because i paid for a month. I am not sure if this will change anything since i am dealing with new people each meeting. No chance to get comfortable with a group.
@Gettingbettertoday
i get it we want to feel more at ease with people .. even if we see someone a few times and give the nod of recognition but we have zero conversation or connection.
I did this for years and felt alone ... i did temp work so i had a small window into being with co-workers could not wait for the 6 month small talk to get to know them thing... so i just started talking to others... asking a question or even weather whatever it takes... made several connections and i was sorry i waited so long in past to take this approach because i missed a lot.
