Counselor experience

I hate when the counselor says that everything is going to be fine because i know after I leave this room and i go out to the next class I will rethink my whole life and then I will think about dying and then I start praying to get any disease or any medical condition that would keep me in the hospital and not go to school but then i get scared because I know if I can’t handle my life now I’m not going to handle it when I’m sick