Ya I'm going to through same it was 3 year relationship I asked her for marriage she said I'm not sure about you then I was so anxious, my mind couldn't process that I went so anxious, getting panic attacks 3 times a day while in office I get panic attacks again she came back and then again' she goes away and it's just so much to take for me I lost all my healing I never wanted relationship with her but she made me love her and then she is doing something it is full confusing , I already had so much anxiety which my parents family gave me it took me 4 year just to talk with people and now she made it worse I feel pitty to exist it's hard to even talk to her always feeling anxious today I talked to her in middle of conversation she left me on seen now my anxiety is on high