At My Worst
Today I am supposed to go to my partner’s family thanksgiving. I’ve been anxious about this all week and now it’s hit the worst. I’ve managed to get three scattered hours of sleep. Other than those three hours I’ve been tossing and turning, waking up with panic attacks. The physical pain is unbearable. I feel like I’m having a heart attack and my stomach is in absolute shreds. I’ve just had some of the worst diarrhea of my life. I should clarify I get frequent diarrhea when I’m anxious. I’m physically shaking and I can’t stop. I feel like I’m screaming in my head and the only thing from stopping actual screams is that everyone is asleep. I already know I’m going to have to cancel going. It’s past the point where I can control myself and I feel unbelievably guilty.
@Ardi7 don't feel guilty😥 you can not help being ill. If your mental health is that bad if you don't cancel, you may be looking at a breakdown. Just tell your partner the truth, and if your partner or their family doesnt understand then b@@ger them. Your health comes first. Gives you a giant festive tiny hug ❤❤squeezes you tightly ❤❤ good luck with it all sweetie ❤ it'll all be ok
