LIFE
Last year a lot was going on in my life and most of the times I had hard times with anxiety and panic attacks. What I tried to learn was accepting the situation that I can't change it at the time and move with life's flow. It's easy to say it in words but it took me days and nights of waking up and going to bed crying. The result was on my side anyway, things changed and my worries just ruined my daily life by overthinking the situation. I still do overthink but learned it hard way that if something is out of my control I just have to stop giving my energy to it.
Now I am practicing to forgive someone who made my days even harder without knowing it. For few month I kept all the anger and hatred in me. I wasn't in the situation to react at that time. I don't hate that person anymore but I still can't forgive that person. Every time I remember what that person did, make me mad again. I am practicing to let that energy goes to be able to forgive that person, not because that person deserves it but because I deserve peace.
@Rianakh95
What you’ve shared is so real, and I just want to acknowledge how much strength it takes to go through something like this and still choose growth. Anxiety, panic attacks, and overthinking can feel suffocating, and the fact that you’ve worked through it and learned to accept what’s beyond your control is a huge step forward. It’s not easy, and I can only imagine the weight of those nights spent crying but you made it through. That alone says so much about your resilience.
And now, with forgiveness you’re approaching it in the most honest way possible. Forgiveness isn’t about letting someone off the hook; it’s about freeing yourself from the burden of carrying that pain. It’s okay that you’re not there yet. Healing doesn’t follow a timeline, and neither does forgiveness. The fact that you’re even trying, that you’re self-aware enough to want peace for yourself, shows that you’re on the right path.
Some days, it will still sting. Some moments, the anger will still resurface. But every time you choose to let go even just a little you’re taking back your energy, your peace, and your power. You don’t have to force it, and you don’t have to rush it. Just trust that, in time, you will get there. And when you do, it won’t be for them it’ll be for you. You deserve that lightness, that freedom. Keep going. You're doing beautifully.
@Rianakh95 Thanks so much for sharing. It sounds like you've been through a lot, and I admire your strength and the emotional work you've put into overcoming this. The fact that you are working towards forgiveness for yourself, and not for them, is very powerful. Even if it's not easy, it is the progress that matters. Keep moving towards building peace for yourself because you deserve it.
