I live in constant fear of going to Hell.
I'm extremely afraid of going to ***, to the point where all I do is think about it 24/7 and I never have peace of mind, ever.
I find myself constantly trying to prove that it's not real, but that never works out in my favor. This is most likely OCD, but I cannot afford therapy right now and it's causing me major anxiety.
Things like hellish NDE stories (Not the ones with Christian motives, but actual written ones on or the NDE site.) and stories of people on their deathbeds, screaming about *** and seeing demons, only tells me that there's a *** and that I'm going there.
No, I'm not particularly religious. I just can't push aside the stories that I've read and continue living like everything is fine and peachy.
Please, if anyone has advice for this, I'd greatly appreciate it. I feel scared, literally 24/7. I feel like I forgot what it's like to have peace of mind.
@Pink212
I hope you will not regard my answer as too much of a dark sense of humour, but if you are struggling with OCD and so intense obsessive thoughts, I believe you should not be afraid of h3ll, because your thoughts can make you fell like already there 😊Â
But more seriously: do you remember that God is Love, is Help, is Hope and Mercy?
Such stories, as the ones you mentioned, might be created just to be sold as a cheap sensation, and I believe that is much better There. Also, some people may project their ideas of afterlife from their own feelings of guilt and regret.
I think it is also great to separate any moral judgement of someone's life from strictly emotional issues, like anxiety or tendency to self-blame. Feeling bad might mean you lost your God from your sight a little, but doesn't make you a sinner.