Trying to break my porn/sex addiction
This feels insanely embarrassing to even admit but I'm seriously struggling and have been for years.
I'm 16, and have been insanely hypersexual since maybe 9..? 10? 11? It definitely got accelerated and kickstarted then. It stems from me being a victim of COCSA, online grooming and unsupervised Internet access and stumbling across porn and dirty images, and it's been going headstrong ever since, maybe even worse than before.
I was clean on my porn addiction for a few months before I caved and broke my streak. I'm not as worried about my masturbation addiction since it doesn't necessarily contribute to a harmful industry but usually the two go hand in hand. Plus i don't think normal 16 year olds do it as frequently as I do, we're talking like damn near over 10 times a week. I literally rely on it to sleep half the time or as a stress reliever and coping mechanism and it isn't healthy when I do it as excessively as I do.
I've tried to stop multiple times, only for my mind to start wandering and getting urges and then I just break my streak again after a day or two, I can't help it, it gets really distracting and I want to at least stop watching porn entirely and dial down my sex addiction itself to a healthy manageable amount. If anyone would help hold me accountable that would be lovely...
@Rainestorm4697 Have you ever tried looking into finding something to distract yourself? I'm not too ashamed to admit I had this problem awhile back, but I found hobbies that kept me distracted entirely and put all of my energy into it instead.
And it really isn't as embarrassing as you think it is. It's amazing on it's own that you're bold enough to come out and admit you have a problem, which in itself is a step towards completely getting over this.
@JustABrush I have hobbies, the only problem is right now is that I have one that doesn't require much energy but isn't a take up a decent chunk of time to take my mind off of it, and the other isn't as fun right now since I'm heavily burnt out and can't find the time nor motivation to do it. But I will keep that in mind when it does come back and I get out of school or go on break again, thanks for the tip. And thank you in general for the reassurance, I needed that
@Rainestorm4697 Well when you do get on break or such I heavily suggest just doing things for yourself. Go on some walks, read some good books, try some form of art, even go hanging out with friends works. Just do things that keep you progressing. We're constantly getting farther along in everything we do and even just doing something like doodling for ten or so minutes makes a change. Because you spent ten or so minutes being productive, and doing something that personally I find helpful in distracting yourself from anything bugging you, or even work on your relationships, reach out to relatives or old friends. Maybe even just playing some games online could work too- It's different for everyone.
Honestly though, if you ever need to talk or need any kind of support, me and hundreds of others on here are here to just support you in anything.
@Rainestorm4697 i can understand how it feels ..if u need to talk about it , you can mess me
