How do I fight the urge while alone?

I felt you're emotions as I read. Keep in mind.. positive mindset results to a positive outcome. Prayer is a powerful instrument, please try it. In due time you're heading process will be much better on a positive note

I think it's very mature that you can reach out for help and desire change. The core element of pornography addiction is a need for intimacy. There are ways to enjoy intimacy without pornography or even physical sexuality. Your brain has developed neural pathways to meet that need through pornography, as a habit. Even opening ourself up like this is a form of intimacy, being vulnerable, and can help you form new habits. What are some forms of intimacy that you can practice within your benefits and values that can help your meet your need and increase the fire of your faith? I think it's also importantly that you continue to believe you can overcome this! We believe in you and are rooting for you!