Dad

My dad has had a problem with drinking for around 3 years now i think. the past year becoming much more serious, he doesnt admit it but i think it would be considered alcoholic. i only found out a couple of months ago along with my siblings. we’ve had so many long conversation with him where he says he’ll stop, he goes to meetings but can just never stop. every single day. he says terrible thing i can only hope he doesnt mean. i’m only 14 so im pretty fragile you could say. added on to him constantly insulting me and then telling me he loves me the next day when i’ll confront him is hard. i feel stuck. 14 years old, covid and alcohol stuffing up everything.