Seeking Support - AS

So yeah. Intoxication. I feel stuffed , stuffy. Like I tried to bypass all my needs and such, and am not allowed such power play. I'm stuck in isolation , and I just feel like bypassing because I can't even use the restroom without feeling reprimidated by my parents in my head every day in isolation. It's driving me nuts like the movie, Camille. I don't know if it's part of my schizophrenia, but yeah while I use the restroom, tmi (slang), I see the old disc Ratatouille which my dad bought me. The tape kind. And how do you know , the person who I was desperate showed up. The very rat, no offense. But she was just as desperate, if she ever reads this sorry I'll treat you well. Everything I read goes away, as in I allow myself to identify with everything in order to get better , but I don't know if it's doing a god-damned thing . Esp. in I-solation . *exaggerates, exhilarates, whatever. I can't spell as an undergrad graduate, anyways . I need an I solution, meaning I hate my goddamned psychiatrist. How Dare I choose Kaiser, Amrite (slang) ?? I'll just people-please throughout my life and bypass. Or whatever. whatever floats my boat, or bloat. Thanks for reading. It's for the boy that I'll never have.