Fresh start

Day#1

I have struggled with marijuana addiction for 14 years. I started using to escape my negative feelings but in an instant I was convinced that life was better with weed. It changed all of the old ideas I had about smoking and my body became a prisoner to the substance. I am now beginning to notice health concerns and battling with my brain to please give it up. It is no longer worth it to me to continue using. My 39th birthday is this month and it is my goal to not be using by the time I am 40. I said the same thing around age 30 but it feels different this time. I have been reading more and reaching out for support when needed. I realize and finally accept that I cannot successfully remain sober without maintaining support. One day at a time I will continue this battle and become stronger with time.

Mornings are difficult since it is fresh on the brain in the morning but it's not has difficult as it has been in the past. I am currently not working so that leaves too much free time but I am doing my best to stay occupied. Getting outside, studying, reaching out for support, games, exercise, puzzles, art, writing, are all healthy outlets that are working. It does help alleviate the stress and anxiety but it is definitely not easy and takes more focus sober. Willing to put in the work. #teamsober