Addiction and the Truth
I would like to add this to the many who suffer with addictions. This is my story!
My story begins like many. I fell in love with a substance before I was able to fall in love with myself. At the age of 15, I had a corrective surgery done. It was a painful surgery and many more followed. Like many I was prescribed oxycodone and other opioids. I became addicted to opioids from the first moment I popped a oxy. I felt numb and it slowed the world down, it slowed the pain of being a socially akward male teen growing up. I had a lot going on in my life at the time. A substance that could allow me to feel nothing and it became a life long nightmare. It took from me my youth, my courage and my love. It took away a future, a father and a friend. Most of all it took away everything I have ever worked for. A drug so powerful it destroyed everything without me knowing. The emotional stress involved with it, destdestro my pride, my self worth and commitments. It never allowed me to grow up and love the way I should of and it was a battle to stay on the straight and narrow. It never allowed me to deal with the demons I had inside. It never allowed me to have faith in myself and in others. It only allowed me to stay alone and destroy everything I loved. I don't put the blame on my addiction for that is the past. One thing It didn't take away, was my big heart. It allowed me to grow in a way I love more, appreciate more and working a honest life now. It allowed me to never stop trying to achieve whatever it might be in my life. I hate stigma. I hate the mental illness and addiction labels people give. I hate the way it made me think of myself all these years. It has been such a battle. So if you love a addict, love them close. It's a disease that lasts forever and it's a disease that does not defy them. We are not those you replace we are those you embrace with love. If you decide to love a addict, just know you decide to love who they are. I'm a person with a lot of love, it's just love that has been burried deep within a lot of pain. We may not love in ways you don't understand. We don't use you as a crutch, we love you with all our hearts. We fight everyday with it and some weeks, months and years gets tough. We are loyal and faithful, its sometimes when the battle gets hard we start to think we are unworthy. All an addict has is time and love. Thank You
@enthusiasticYard6010
Hi there,
I really appreciate you taking the time to share your experience with us today. My elder brother has an addiction to alcohol, and in many ways has pushed all his siblings away, your entry here is very insightful, and has given me an alternative room for thought, thank you.
I also want to congratulate you on your successful recovery, it
@professionalPerspective60
I'ts something I feel is a passion to fight. Sometimes it feels hopeless and it's a road I wish not on others. I take into consideration that many of us are different. Many of us different in our addictions and especially ones that have mental illness as well. same philosophy applies to all of life. Truth to the matter once a addict goes through the NA progeam once, they come out someone different. I followed all my NA steps. It made me who I am today. I can't say I haven't had hard times, I just love more now. I remember all the things I did and all I hurt. The battles so hard because I felt like I couldn't be loved by someone close. I know it sounds like a load of crap, it's the battle within and the love I should of shared instead of holding it back. I rambled enough. I feel better now. Thank you