I couldn’t make it past 9 days
I’ve thought my nicotine addiction was bad, yet I only made it 9 days (alcohol) sober. Kind of going through a breakup, kind of getting out of depression. But I didn’t realize my alcohol issues were this bad. I’m now typing as I drank about 4 shots just to deal with the fact my ex-situationship also best friend now has a girl he likes and tells her all the things he once told me. I tried journaling. I exercised (volleyball). I did the breathing exercises. It was either throwing up or drinking because nicotine couldn’t help either. There’s a long line of alcoholism in my family. Am I doomed? I’m so competitive and not even breaking my streak saved me from going at it again. The worst part is that the only reasons I want to stop is beacause of anemia and the deep and awful depression it sends me on the day after. I need it to cope with depression but after it feels like ***. I feel awful about engaging again.
@Fiovia You made it 9 days and that’s good. On day 10 you were facing some tough emotions. So you made a decision to handle that with alcohol. You learned again that alcohol isn’t the best solution. A better solution is facing your tough feelings. No human escapes tough feelings. So I’m going to suggest you don’t pile on more bad feelings about drinking. You did it. It’s done. Move forward. Another 9days? No, another one day. A single day is the only day that counts. Today! Not yesterday. Not tomorrow.