Nicotine and disposable pods
I started with disposable pods December of last year. Pods give me a sense of fulfillment of sorts. With my anxiety I already had that craving for struggling to breathe. Pods help me with that, make me numb for some time which is all I could ask for. Today I’m 11 days sober but tbh I’m just doing it to prove to myself I can be without it if I want to, cause I’ve been thinking about buying a new one everyday since I temporarily quit. Every chance I have to by a new one I think of the way I’ll do it. I’ll sneak out of my house, buy it from the store near my house, then come back as if nothing happened. I think my home environment has a lot to do with it, but then again am I just not blaming others for things that are my fault again? And while I write this I just feel like I’m trying to guilt trip whoever reads this into thinking this isn’t my fault and this isn’t an addiction, that I’m just overreacting. Again, so many people my age are worst, they don’t even have issues but they can’t love without pods, some have even moved to cigarettes. So I sit here thinking wait so am I actually that bad?? And idk
i don’t think I h e any dependence symptoms or whatever you call it, but I want them back so bad.
can someone please tell me is not bad so I can get back to pods