Alcohol
I don't drink every day but I so badly want to stop I've gotten to the point where a litre bottle of Jack Daniels lasts me 2 days. I make stupid decisions like splitting up with my partner, say the most horrible things to him. Feel ashamed for a bit then I'm back to drinking after a day or two.
It's had a massive impact on my finances I'm short everyone & dipped into my savings g by hundreds over the last few months.
I've know I needed to stop for a while now, a two days ago I made a video of my lying on the kitchen floor using a tea towel as a pillow because I was too drunk to move to remind me of how bad it's got & told myself what I think of myself. I'm still thinking when I can have my next drink, I don't know how to stop
@silverglitter1989
I am so sorry you are going through this struggle. My family has been affected by alcoholism and it is no joke for sure. I think you stop when you are so sick of your life being controlled by the bottle that you are willing to do anything to change it. Please get professional help, you need support, but I know you can do it ❤️
I can completely understand from a family members point of view hwo it would feel to have ti see this. More so after watching myself on the video I made. In a way I agree with that as I had a problem before & stopped as I just didn't want to. Now even though I'm sick of my behaviour, I'm using alcohol to forget the things that I'm going through at the moment that very few could contemplate. Although I know it's an excuse & it doesn't help me forget. I'm so mentally drained & messed up, going through therapy nothing seems to take away, the vicious cycle of my mentality.
Will professional help as in gp mean losing my children? I wait until they're sound asleep to drink even that comes across as me making it sound like what I do better.
Thank you for taking the time to reply x
@silverglitter1989
I can completely relate to what you are going through. I have been struggling with alcohol for many years now and want to quit, but somehow I go back to drinking. I have tried going to AA classes but it hasn't really helped, any other tips would be much appreciated.
