Divorce …. Ugh

my husband and I separated Feb 2021. I Haven’t seen him since. I’ve tried to get him to meet with me or even just talk in the phone and he refused. It’s hard. So hard. I’m so worried about money and I have constant visions of being homeless. It’s terrible. I dread waking up day to day. I’ve never felt so bad in my life. Yes. I’ve always dealt with depression but somehow I was always in control of my life, but not this time. We worked together. I left my career to build his business. I created our wealth. Now I’m just trash to him. Done rambling. Just needed to get it out.