Feeling lost and depressed

@littleChestnut6051

Loss of a parent or anyone really is hard..... grief is different some are hit at time of passing and others break later......... maybe so many things left in the air ......

I was a hit later person and took awhile to find my way to deal as grief or what gets you through....... it is all over the map. try things journal / talking out loud like you would to her.... look through photos and even connect with others because i found the person i knew had sides i did not see but others did and that was interesting and cathartic for me.

Really sorry about the loss. It's not easy losing a loved one. But you can take comfort with the impacts and legacies left behind

@littleChestnut6051 This may sound weird but some love songs can be interpreted as a family like love. There were two songs that helped me through the loss of a dear relative-

Think of me from phantom of the opera(I used to listen like my relative was the one singing the message to me)

Think of me, think of me fondly

When we've said goodbye

Remember me, once in a while

Please promise me you'll try

When you find that once again you long

To take your heart back and be free

If you ever find a moment

Spare a thought for me

We never said our love was evergreen

Or as unchanging as the sea

But if you can still remember

Stop and think of me

Think of all the things

We've shared and seen

Don't think about the way

Things might have been

Think of me, think of me waking

Silent and resigned

Imagine me trying too hard

To put you from my mind

Recall those days

Look back on all those times

Think of the things we'll never do

There will never be a day

When I won't think of you

Evermore from 2017 Beauty and the beast(It's about missing someone and being able to remember)

I was the one who had it all

I was the master of my fate

I never needed anybody in my life

I learned the truth too late

I'll never shake away the pain

I close my eyes, but she's still there

I let her steal into my melancholy heart

It's more than I can bear

Now I know she'll never leave me

Even as she runs away

She will still torment me, calm me, hurt me

Move me, come what may

Wasting in my lonely tower

Waiting by an open door

I'll fool myself, she'll walk right in

And be with me for evermore

I rage against the trials of love

I curse the fading of the light

Though she's already flown so far beyond my reach

She's never out of sight

Now I know she'll never leave me

Even as she fades from view

She will still inspire me

Be a part of everything I do

Wasting in my lonely tower

Waiting by an open door

I'll fool myself, she'll walk right in

And as the long, long nights begin

I'll think of all that might have been

Waiting here for evermore