@navyApricot4268
Hello there, Navy Apricot <3
Please hang in there. You're not alone :-) Sending you blessings and prayers for courage, strength, and inner peace. This difficult patch that you're going through is just a learning experience. You will make it out, just like you've made your way through every challenge that you've faced in your life up to this day <3 We be-leaf in you! :-)
I've been going through something similar. Going back to Louise Hay tapes on YouTube has really helped me calm down. I'm sharing the link to my favourite recording of hers here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lz16YqpWkz4&t=2067s I've also been reading a book by Brene Brown called "I Though It Was Just Me: Women Reclaiming Power and Courage in a Culture of Shame". It's like a warm hug. It might help you as well.
Take care and we hope to hear from you soon to find out how you're doing now!