I don't think I am ever going to be a mom.

I honestly don't wish for any advice. Also, please refrain from sharing your own journey to having kids, even if the intention is to uplift me. I say this with the best intention. I am happy for you nonetheless. But please, do not share it with me at this time. Thank you.

I have never been in any position to consider having biological children. Nothing in my life has fell into place for that to happen. I have struggled with mental health since my twenties, and now (halfway through my thirties) I am working towards recovery once and for all. At least something more sustainable than what have been in the past.

I am unemployed, on benefits. I still need to be for some time to come. My personal life is a complete and utter mess. I have no sense of purpose. The only thing I am holding on for, is the chance to get treatment once again. I have lost so many chances of finding success financially.

I don't even want kids at this point. I'm not sure I ever wanted kids. There is too much I need to work out, for just me. My mental health, physical health. All of that. I am just hearing the clock tick, and I feel like there is not enough time for me to get on board. I have like 10 years of lost life to make up for.

I just feel left outiside. Not belonging to any group. Missing out. I am sorry for being a depressive ass. I ususally do my best to be supportive in the forums.

I don't really want advice on the kid aspect. Thank you for not advicing me on that.
I just needed to vent.