I don't think I am ever going to be a mom.
I honestly don't wish for any advice. Also, please refrain from sharing your own journey to having kids, even if the intention is to uplift me. I say this with the best intention. I am happy for you nonetheless. But please, do not share it with me at this time. Thank you.
I have never been in any position to consider having biological children. Nothing in my life has fell into place for that to happen. I have struggled with mental health since my twenties, and now (halfway through my thirties) I am working towards recovery once and for all. At least something more sustainable than what have been in the past.
I am unemployed, on benefits. I still need to be for some time to come. My personal life is a complete and utter mess. I have no sense of purpose. The only thing I am holding on for, is the chance to get treatment once again. I have lost so many chances of finding success financially.
I don't even want kids at this point. I'm not sure I ever wanted kids. There is too much I need to work out, for just me. My mental health, physical health. All of that. I am just hearing the clock tick, and I feel like there is not enough time for me to get on board. I have like 10 years of lost life to make up for.
I just feel left outiside. Not belonging to any group. Missing out. I am sorry for being a depressive ass. I ususally do my best to be supportive in the forums.
I don't really want advice on the kid aspect. Thank you for not advicing me on that.
I just needed to vent.
@tomatoesslapngl
Hello, Tomato. Thank you for writing such a heartfelt comment. I truly appreciate your compassionate being, more than I can put into words. I want to push through and have faith, and believe in the possibility of having inner peace, despite previous experiences. Thank you for echoing this. Wishing you all the best.
Whole posts reminds me of a phrase I read somewhere online: "if we ever stop talking, send me a song."
Here's a song for you, I really like:
https://youtu.be/aF58PCj3zMk
Much love to you ❤ 💛 💙
@Listener89104
Hello, Listener.
I am just overwhelmed by your sentiment, and the song. I am tearing up now. Thank you for such a caring message, it means the world to me. Truly. Much love and appreciation.
@Listener89104
Ps. I saved it. It will be a reminder of your compassion, and the compassion that we don't always see, or feel, at first glance. Thank you again.