Feeling beaten down.
I'm feeling completely beaten down in life lately. As I get older it feels like the weight of my inaction and lack of success is worsening and burying me in my already horrible mental health. I can barely leave my apartment, I have these daily non-stop internal battles with myself that make me sick to the point of needing rest, which just turns into worsening viscous cycle. Everything I do is generating negative emotion and I feel like I really lost this fight. The things that made me who I was when I was younger are fraying away and I feel this paralyzing anxiety about how I'm potentially going to manage and navigate people, work and the world in the future. I've never felt so unable to solve my own problems in my life and it's becoming legitimately frightening.
@consideratePine2265 signal boosting. i hope you get a response soon. sending you big hugs
@consideratePine2265 Hi Pine<3 I see you're on a break, I hope you're doing okay<3
What you described sounds exhausting, there's nothing wrong in needing to rest more. The expectations we set for ourselves are the hardest to achieve, there's always something that should have been done differently or in a better away and in this race against the impossible we often forget to stop and give ourself the appreciation we truly deserve for making it this far, for fighting in a battle that felt impossible to win. Sometimes the fear of it all is more dreadful than the actual situation and you've managed to navigate things this far so I'm sure you have what it takes to find your way again. Don't hesitate to reach out for help, to friends, to family or to professionals, you don't have to deal with it all on your own<3
