Just really need someone to talk to
Hey. Im. 34. Go by Britt. I'm experiencing some lapses in memory from my childhood, of my father regarding sexual abuse. I'm currently in therapy, and also about to begin secondary therapy doing CPT. I've been through it with my psychiatrist helping me narrow down the right medications for me. We've recently done gene X, to better find what medication I metabolize and I've just started a new medication. I guess I'm just burnt out. I'm really burnt out and discouraged. Hopeful to just be around people who can understand me. My husband tries, and I love him for his support, but I really need to hear from voices that get it. I just want a friend.
Thank you to anyone that reads and responds.
I am reading up on Polyvagal Theory and that's been helpful. My therapist goes through the three stages and I guess trying to get a better understanding of that has helped. It's still a bit confusing. I think - and we've also talked about this in therapy - that I've become hyerfocused on reading about my trauma and finding areas to help myself to avoid my actual problems. She told me that as long as it's keeping me from being dystegulated that I shouldn't judged myself so harshly as I jump from hobby to hobby, which tends to be a habit when I go through this. Right now it just happens to be reading on DBT and practicing breathing techniques and mindfulness. Which I guess. It could be a *** of a lot worse.