Mental health

I hope this is the right place to speak about but lately I've been struggling with bipolar depression it's not just that but I feel lost at the same time I moved to text as from Colorado back in 2024 last August got into a massive fight with my roommate went to jail and I lost everything in the process my home, myself my cats my best friend my job I was a huge wreck and wanted to relapse but I pushed through I moved back to Colorado to live with my bf and honestly it's great but it's hard to get a job I'm waiting 2 month for my ID it's under processing expectation being stuck at home makes me feel so guilty that I lost everything that mattered to me I'm back on square one I'm struggling I'm doing everything I can to help myself and get my life back on track just some set backs with my ID but I'm finding ways around it

I feel like I'm not doing enough idk what I'm doing wrong is it just my bipolar depression acting up? Or how can I manage this feeling it's killing me? Idk if anyone can relate but I hope someone relates to me with bipolar depression