Anxiety over own birthday

Anyone has this too? It’s not because I am growing up, it’s a feeling of this day needs to be amazing and I knnow ir will be just average.
also have been feeling disappointed with my friends and I don’t feel like organizing anything special.

@faithfulApricot3660
I think many experience this .....they would like the day to be good and special ...
yet know it will not be ....
i just went through this again this year. last year was all done by a friend and was good......... but looking back most years are exactly the same a few texts ... maybe a FB post
but those supposedly close to me ... but they simply want me to tell them everything to do ... cake? dinner out? if i want anything it is like go buy yourself something i will pay u back ....... I have hated my bday for years ....... stress it coming up then ticked off after because yet again it was a bust UNLESS i entertain myself.