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yukieq
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PathStep 33 Compassion hearts63 Forum posts6 Forum upvotes7 Current upvotes7 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2024 Member sinceSeptember 29, 2024
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I'm just some traumatised lunatic who needs help. But we move

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Grief, and forgetting the ones who mattered
Trauma Support / by yukieq
Last post
October 11th
...See more Hi all. I hope some of you can relate to this or I'm sure some can at least give advice or validation this is normal. A couple of years ago I lost my best friend in a shocking event. My friend was murdered and the killer got away with it because he is white and "has a bright future ". Although to this day I wish something actually happened to him at least prison. I'm not going to talk about it. I just need to know is it normal, to forget what color his eyes where, what his voice and laugh sounded like. I mean I spent 24/7 with him for years growing up together. And now I can't remember him. I'm so ashamed of myself because I never went to his funeral it would of killed me to see him like that. It was stupidly selfish of me not to go. But at the same time I would of been worse off. I regret not going every day. I just wish I could remember him...
Loneliness
Trauma Support / by yukieq
Last post
October 8th
...See more HIII. This is just another rant if u would like to reply n and have a convo please feel free I have been feeling very lonely with my mental health recently. I only feel like this because I don't really see or hear about people who has been through anything similar roo me. Or either the amount of trauma either. NOW I'm not degrading or undermining anymore for not going through the same amount of trauma. But it does get really lonely sometimes when I have so many bad things to talk about sometimes I'm worried people think I'm just telling stories. I wish people didn't think that though because I just want to be honest with people but i also don't want people to think I'm lying about everything. Anyway that's about it. I hope everyone gets a speedy recovery from your own issues.
I feel lost and alone (trigger warning)
Trauma Support / by yukieq
Last post
October 8th
...See more I don't feel much anymore. Or if I do it's usually anger or sadness. I was assaulted but not only did she steal my innocents that day she stole my manhood and my sanity. I feel as if people will never care about me. I feel deeply alone like nobody will ever care about me. The pain of me going through all this gets unbearable on times like I can't escape this never ending cycle of self hatred and shame that cones from being a victim.
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