I am so random..
I like to make crafts, and the things I've made is usually not really useful.. I watch Twilight Saga thousand times and still hope that Edward would show up in my room.. I sleep at 4 am just to finish reading fanfic on Wattpad.. I browse video edit on Youtube about any gay-ship and squeal because they are so cute and legit.. I listen to music so loud in my earphone, my ear hurt, but I just keep listening, sometimes I do air guitar too.. I headbanging to metal song, pretending I am in a concert.. I dance in front of mirror, admiring my reflection, how happy she is.. I download any song in other language, just because I like to sing along to a song that other people don't know.. I talk to my posters just to practice my English conversation, and of course they never answer, so I talk to Siri.. I put Cheetos on my sandwich.. I (almost) pet every cats which I meet in the street, oo I love cats, even cats are asshole.. I hate being social sometimes, some people are mean and rude.. I wash my clothes when there is no more clothes on a cabinet.. I suck at English, but I still manage to speak/write/listen anything English..
Nevermind..
I have my own world when I am alone, I don't need to pretend to be anyone else.. But, whenever I start thinking about my real life, that really stressed me out.. When I sleep, I had a nightmare, or two.. I overthink everything.. And scared.. Scared because maybe, maybe someday I get to that point where I can't hold on anymore, and I just want to sit in the corner and disappear..

"The brain is alone.. It's just you and your thoughts.. And you can't escape your thoughts.. The only way is just to die.." -Even