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One day at a time ☀️
Depression Support / by xiaolongwow
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 October 29th, 2022
...See more Hey folks. I was the person who posted here about wanting to not be alive a few days ago and I just want to share with everyone that I've been actively taking steps to improve my mental wellness and outlook in life. :) First off, I started with a social media break. I'm only on Day 2 but each day is a big win for someone who uses it 6 hours a day! :) I noticed that I have more time to ponder about things and just observe thoughts as opposed to making instant conclusions. I understand that being online is crucial to keeping connections, so I just put out a short note on my social profiles that I'm taking a break but they can still reach me on IMs if they need me. Second, I've decided to start my mornings differently. I started taking a bath in the morning, listen to affirmations, and eat at local eatery so I have an excuse to go for a 20-min walk at 8am. The perfect hour, you guys. Not too hot and not too early still. That's it so far but I'm glad I'm finding more ways to appreciate life with these small steps. :) Also want to share this quote that keeps going: "Wake up and look for something amazing each day." I love how it specifically uses the term "look for" because it actively encourages me to find positivity with the easiest task: looking at them! That's it. Hope you're all having a good day!
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Today's the first time that I feel like I wanted to stop existing.
Depression Support / by xiaolongwow
Last post
 October 28th, 2022
...See more Hey guys! A bit strange but I just thought of this a while ago. I wasn't too shocked by it, but I found it interesting to have had that thought. I've had my days. The good, the bad, and the worst. The times when I felt like I want this were when I felt like I was at my lowest: stuck in a dysfunctional household, surviving a toxic relationship, and healing from a medical surgery. But I found it strange that I would feel that way. I had a decent remote job that was paying well. I was living in an apartment that gave me enough personal space. I don't have a lot of friends anymore, but I don't take time from my day to mingle with toxic circles too. It's just that I don't find passion in anything anymore. I feel like I'm just floating through life and letting time pass by.
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