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writerchick88
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PathStep 10 Compassion hearts20 Forum posts49 Forum upvotes90 Current upvotes90 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2024 Member sinceMarch 1, 2016
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Hello. I am an adult woman who has battled with anxiety and depression for 10+ years. I recently pushed myself to seek out therapy and now I have a formal diagnosis: generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) with secondary depression.
I enjoy reading, listening to music, writing, crocheting and photography.
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Work Anxiety
Anxiety Support / by writerchick88
Last post
 December 2nd, 2021
...See more A few days ago my boss approached me about a promotion- but it has to be on the down low because the whole thing is happening because her boss is getting fired so she's stepping up and she wants me to take her place. The issue is I am VERY conflicted about taking the position. The pros are of course a pay rise, I wouldn't have to work overnight (which comes with its own set of pros), it would look great on any resume to be promoted after only working a year where I am. I would be able to potentially affect a lot of change in how things are run. I'd get more client interaction. The cons being I can see how stressful the job is. One of the women I work with had my bosses old position and she quit. I see how much stress it puts my boss under and I am SOOOOO not about that life. Its a lot of extra work, a lot of extra pressure- but the biggest thing is that I want to go back to grad school and get my degree for counseling. I'm concerned about being able to do school and work at the same time as it is- now let alone a higher stress, probably longer hours/more days job. The worst thing is that I can't talk to any of my co-workers about it, my therapist is on vacation so I can't talk to him about it, my family and friends will all think I am NUTS for turning it down and that I'm letting my anxiety talk me out of something good. Luckily, it doesn't sound like it'll happen all that soon so I have time to mull it over...but it's already causing my resting level of anxiety to ratchet up which is giving me all kinds of GI issues.
I wish I were religious
Depression Support / by writerchick88
Last post
 August 2nd, 2019
...See more I always wish that I could be more religious. I wish I had that kind of faith that others do. That there was a higher power who had some grandplan for me- that I could trust in something so implictly. That there was a promise for something amazing waiting at the end of all this suffering. I downloaded some books on religion to see if I could find one that matches but I haven't gotten very far.
Never stops hurting
Depression Support / by writerchick88
Last post
 October 25th, 2018
...See more No matter how many times I see it happen, seeing my friends doing an activity we all loved together without me hurts. Even though I know it's impractical pretty much all the time since I live so far away...but like...it still hurts. It was an activity we all LOVED to do, it really bonded us and brought us together, so to see them doing it without me- without an invitation- really hurts. I know I've said no more times than I care to admit, and I know since I hate driving, it means a lot of coordinating and picking me up at the bus stop. And even though I should be used to it...it still hurts that I feel as though I don't have any friends and am only ever rarely included as an afterthought.
New Years Party
Anxiety Support / by writerchick88
Last post
 December 27th, 2017
...See more My friend invited me to a party at her house but shes in a different state and I know itll be a big deal and Ill have to spend the night and Ill have to just wait for her to bring me back home. I want to say yes because every year I wish I had friends or a loved one to spend it with instead of just my parents but I cant help the knot in my stomach as I try to get myself to say yes.
Never Enough
Anxiety Support / by writerchick88
Last post
 August 13th, 2018
...See more So after a long talking to, two panic attacks and being forced to go, I finally applied to some jobs. I'm still trying to unwind hours later but the problem is despite applying to five places (when I really only went out for one), my mom wants to take me out again tomorrow. It feels like its not enough for her. Like I already have an interview from one of the places- the one I actually wanted to apply to- and she's still pushing for more. I get that she means well and pushing got me to apply when I probably never would have otherwise, but it feels like its never enough for her. If I were afraid of something that made sense to her, it'd be different maybe but its like can I just see if this interview pans out before I put myself through another day like today for nothing?
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