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wrenrainygardens
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Bio

Hi everyone! <3

I'm Hana, a sapphic asexual :] I use they/she pronouns, and I don't really label my gender identity.

I love forests and basically everything inside of them. I also love collecting random crap. I'm super interested in tv and film, and I want to be a cinematographer/writer/basically any crew job for indie film productions! Might also be a Forest Ranger but idk. I also love random cartoons, D&D, podcasts, video games, and writing. :)

I have Major Depressive Disorder, General Anxiety Disorder, and Body Focused Repetitive Behavior Disorder (nail biting and skin picking). I also have OCD without compulsions, however that is technically only diagnosed by my therapist and not a psychiatrist so I am undiagnosed.

Here because I'm struggling with self love, anxiety (specifically socially), negative self talk/self hatred, obsessions and intrusive thoughts, lgbtq+ issues, etc. I'm a minor so please don't be weird.

New to this, so I'm excited to talk with you guys! Remember you're loved, you're worthy of love, and you deserve nice things! <3








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Fellow Pokemon Lovers!
TV & Movies / by wrenrainygardens
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July 9th
...See more Anyone else who loves Pokemon (whether it be the TV show, the movies, the videogames, cards, etc.) What's you guys' favorite Pokemon/videogame in the series? I'm curious and I'd love to know :)
Lesbian crush, anxiety, and also I'm ace????
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by wrenrainygardens
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November 25th, 2023
...See more So there's a lot of factors in this so I'm sorry if this is long.  I was assigned female at birth (they/she) and still partially identify as such, and my current crush is a girl. I know that she is bisexual due to a sticker, and we've complimented each other back and forth, but my anxiety is so severe that I can't bring myself to see if we can even be friends or try to get her number. It closes up my throat and I can't talk to her. I have a lot of reasons for anxiety around this.  Firstly, I'm asexual. I still have romantic feelings but I always have this fear that no one is ever going to want to be in a relationship with me or understand that. I don't know how she'd feel about that; I'm sure as a friend she'd be accepting, but in a relationship, I don't know.  Secondly, I've never had a crush this strong before. I really have the desire to be with her, but I've never been in a relationship and I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. I'm really afraid of rejection. And then there's the topic of my family; my close family is trying their best, they know I've liked both girls and guys before. They don't know I'm asexual, and they think I'm unlabeled. They're all mormon, so I know they're just praying I settle with a guy. (Despite the fact I prefer women, I'm omniromantic) They would not approve of me in a wlw relationship, and my extended family would be horrible to come out to; they'd never accept it. If I got in a relationship with her, it's more than likely I'd have to not tell them for a while.  I don't know how to overcome my anxiety, and part of me wants to just give up and wait for this to fade. But I really would like to at least try. Any advice or ideas?
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