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wonderingsoul95
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Beginning of an eating disorder? How did yours start ?
Eating Disorder Support / by wonderingsoul95
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 July 23rd, 2020
...See more I am posting this because I think I may be developing an eating disorder. I am a very active person training in competitive sports up to 5h a day (pre covid ) I usually eat a strict , clean diet and have had no issues maintaining this for 8 + years . With covid routine has changed and it's made me focus on the aesthetics rather than performance; I've tried to get lean and lost [edited by 24Help1 for weight] kg . Recently I started dating someone after a long time of being single and I thought it would not have this effect on me again , but it did and I sort of 'relaxed my ways' around them eg enjoy a takeout. I lost control of my eating and drinking habits completely and having realised that (and other things as well they just were not good for me at all ) I've ended the relationship. I can't stop the feasting and fasting cycle and I have become so obsessed with weight it's beyond imagination. It's as if I've realised those foods I were not 'allowed ' exist and I just have zero self control once I have a little of them . This is then followed by fasting amid fear of weight gain . This has gone on two weeks now and I've done my best but I have not worked out anywhere near enough due to feeling sluggish then tired due to fasting . I need to get in in gear as I have applied for a role in the army but I can't seem to stop. This post may read as if I'm a male but no I'm actually female . I think the worst part is the sudden fear of weight gain. Any help on how to break this cycle before it goes too far ?
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Weirdest post breakup
Relationship Stress / by wonderingsoul95
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 February 23rd, 2018
...See more Okay. So this guy I was with for a long time broke up with me over a month ago, I was honestly convinced he was the one and it hit me really hard at the start but I came out the other end and I actually feel happier than I was in the relationship. I
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Anxious when alone
Anxiety Support / by wonderingsoul95
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 February 28th, 2018
...See more I suffer from anxiety which I have really managed over the past few months to the point of not feeling any anxiety. My relationship broke down a month ago and since I experience general anxiety around going out and socialising. I do not feel safe at all knowing that I cannot call my ex partner if anything happens and weirdly I feel like a child as if I needed someone to somehow watch over me... i dont know if anyone else experienced anything like this. Overall I do ‘adult ‘ things in life such as I have a promising job, I drive, Im looking to buy a house... but I still feel like a child in a sense that I need someone to watch out for me otherwise I feel insecure and anxious....
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Stuck and confused...
Relationship Stress / by wonderingsoul95
Last post
 February 17th, 2018
...See more My partner who I am still in love with broke up with me after 2.5years. We both have ban saying we never experienced this sort of emotional and intimate connection with no one else before ( we both had long term relationships b4) . The breakup happened mainly because of lack of communication and loss of understanding of and appreciation for one another. Ive been having some downs to do with my anxiety too but no major events like cheating etc took place. It happened a month ago and since he said he wants to try again then gone back on his word then I said I dont want to talk about anything but business ( mutual tenancy that needs giving up) . He messaged me the other night asking how I was so I said Im getting by. He then said it will get better... I said its really hurtful how he is still sounding like he is forcing himself to stay away and tries to force me to think its for the better too. No reply but thats not unusual. I dont know what to think I cant and dont want to move on cause I think there is still something there...
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