I'm a full-time grad student in a new city all alone and that scares me a lot. I love to read, paint and rock climb but I can't afford to do most of these things at the current time. I used to be a very open person always ready for new experiences but in the last 5 years, I've become very lost and anxious when in social situations and doing anything new. I get stuck in my routines and hate breaking from it. After my last few relationships, it has gotten worse and worse each time. I just want a real connection with someone now but I struggle to find that.